Be a Doer: Fill ’er Up
By: Melody Agbisit
We all have moments where we are sitting at our desk at work (or at home, or on the couch, or in New Jersey) pondering “Why am I still here?” Because for whatever reason, “here just doesn’t feel right. I’ve often told myself, “This will be fine until X happens.” Until I graduate, until I turn 35, until the year ends, until I just can’t take it anymore… until… until… until…
I want to change the world. But I’m not ready yet! I haven’t finished my website or finalized my tag line. I haven’t done my professional photoshoot or know enough about e-commerce to feel safe about utilizing it. I haven’t even decided on a company name yet. And as I was anxiously looking at my unfinished to-do list, I met a man who had just organized a random group of people to feed people who are hungry. I asked him what made him start feeding people. He simply said, “I was homeless at one point, so I knew the need. I lived it. And now that I am able to, I help.”
It was so simple, so easy. He didn’t have a formally organized group or a mission statement. He didn’t have a facility or a 503c. He simply saw a need and he filled it. He didn’t worry about everything being perfect or just right. It was a moment of humility. I have all these gifts and talents I am keeping hostage just because the circumstances aren’t perfect. It was also a moment of clarity and conviction that I can, so I must!
In moments like these, I am reminded that life is too short and precious to wait until I’m ready to do what I want to do. And as I planned on how I was going to utilize my gifts to impact the world, I started to question myself. Who am I? How am I different? How can I inspire others to grow and love? I spent most of my life in leadership while honing in on my talents as a writer and encourager. And like many people, I have been discouraged about fighting for my dreams and passions. I’ve been told that my efforts to change the world are futile and that one person, me, cannot a make a difference. And even though I respectfully disagree with the naysayers, I had to ask myself these questions in order to be sure that I am who I think I am, and that I’m working towards becoming the person I want to be. I wanted to make sure that I actually had something to give to the world.
As I started thinking about the magnitude of what it would take to impact humanity, I started to doubt myself, my abilities, and my heart. This battle between being confident in who I am and self-doubt all happened in a matter of seconds and continued for a few minutes. Suddenly, I realized that my mind was heading towards a dark place, so I stopped myself, took a deep breath, zoomed out of the moment to look at my life, and yelled at the top of my lungs, “I AM ENOUGH!”
I am enough! Who I am, today, at this exact moment, is enough to live my dreams and empower those around me. I am enough because I am genuine and true to myself, I have faced my demons, and have overcome great adversity. I am enough because I live my vision and mission and have spent my whole life defining, defending, and protecting it. I am enough because I am simply me. I give myself the authority to live the life I choose and I encourage you to give yourself the authority to do the same!
So I encourage you to wake up each morning with a thankful heart that you are alive and to honor that opportunity by challenging yourself to try new things and face your fears, to pursue your passion, and to be honest with yourself about who you are and what you have to offer. Remind yourself every day that you are enough for your dreams and ambition. Humble yourself and live with integrity for the sake of integrity. Evaluate yourself often to ensure that your actions are in line with your thoughts and feelings. Trust your instincts. And last, but certainly not least, surround yourself with beautiful people and things that motivate you to be the best version of yourself.
You aren’t guaranteed tomorrow, just this moment. So what do you want to do? What do you want to be remembered for? If you wait until you’re ready, you’ll be waiting forever. Whether it is starting a business, going back to school, working towards promotion, applying for a job that you really want, traveling, or feeding the hungry. Whatever your gifts and talents are, they fill a need in the world. And as I was humbly reminded, if you see a need that you can fill, FILL IT!